Master Cleanse Day 4: Me So Hungry

I had a dream last night that consisted of me going out with a group of friends and eating a delicious Indian dinner.  For dessert I had a triple layer pink cake with pink frosting.  Towards the end of the dream, I remembered that I was on a cleanse and wasn't supposed to be eating anything and panicked.  Then I woke up.

Shew.  It was just a dream.

But then this evening, I actually ended up going to a Nepali restaurant!  This is what was consumed:

-butter naan

-daal

-palak paneer

-basmati rice

-lamb kheema (it's like a nepali style piroshki with ground lamb)

Interesting coincidence, no?

One of my friends is leaving to go back to the east coast for grad school and we had a farewell dinner for him.  I contemplated not going but I wanted to spend some time with him before he left so I braved it and went.

Day 4 has been my hardest day so far. That dream had me thinking about food all day. That followed by exposure to this amazing dinner totally pushed my buttons.  The different smells seriously got me wanting food SO BADLY.  

During dinner while everyone was eating, I was so obsessed with the smells that I began to concoct recipes of things I would cook after the cleanse.  I was also visualizing all the food I would eat.  Piroshkis and pizza, specifically.  At one point during the dinner though, I actually became aware of my obsessive fixation with the food and the very act of resting in that awareness released me of binding thoughts.  

I guess my meditation practice is good for something.

I also went for a run again today and it felt great!  No exhaustion.  No tiredness.  I am not experiencing any of the "lows" and "highs" on this cleanse.  Emotionally, I feel very stable.  My energy is also very stable.  All good things.  The only thing that really threw me for a loop was this dinner tonight.

Craving is such a powerful mental force.  It seems that so much of my time is attempting to satisfy some sort of craving, whether it's food or anything else.  In actuality, there's not much that one needs to sustain the body.  I will definitely explore these sensations more during the cleanse.