Master Cleanse: Day 5

I have some serious cravings.  Today I would like to eat:

-a slice of cheese pizza
-fried chicken
-chocolate cake
-tofu.  yes. tofu.

I don't think looking at food porn and watching the Food Network is helping me out so much anymore.  I'm going to attempt to abandon that method of coping with my cravings.

Today is just a lazy Saturday.  My sister and her husband are out of town so I am taking care of their dog while  they're gone.  He seems to have no sympathy for my ravenous desire to eat.  I didn't go out today besides two walks with the dog.  It was nice to get some fresh air.  I wanted to get some alone time so I just chilled.  I went to the Giants game yesterday and my friends were eating fabulous ballpark food: chicken wings, fries, hot dogs.  I realized being around people is a little tough because food is such an integral part of being social.  It makes me want to be alone.  A little alone time is good for the soul.

My boyfriend, T, is at his place cooking right now.  He's an amazing cook, too.  He doesn't really get the idea of cleansing but he's being very supportive.  He lets me smell his dinner every night. I miss him, yes.  But right now I miss food more.  So I'm glad my doggsitting duty allows me some alone time.

My energy is good today but I don't feel like I've hit that "high" where I think I could continue this cleanse.  I don't really have a desire at this point to continue beyond the ten days.  It's mainly because I really want to eat bad food.  Bad bad food.  I am craving healthier things too but, quite honestly, I would love me a bowl of Mac and Cheese right now.

One more things.  I found a scale in my sister's room today and I weighed myself.

Big mistake.

I wasn't pleased with what I saw.  It's actually not the heaviest I've ever been but considering I'm on Day 5 of this cleanse already, it makes me wonder where I was at before.  Eep.  Maybe I really should go vegetarian.  Now I remember why I don't weigh myself.   I prefer the "do my skinny jeans fit" method much much better.

Oh wait. One more thing really.  I forgot to mention that I abandoned taking cayenne pepper pills!!!  What I do is take apart the pill and ingest the powder with a shot of my lemon drink.  I read that the capsule that holds the cayenne needs to be digested so takes some energy away from detoxing.

It's 8:15 in the evening now so I think I'll wind down by watching TV.  I don't really watch so much TV these days, so it feels sinfully delicious to gorge on on the trashy shows.  I mean, Basketball Wives?!?  I can't look away.

Buenos noches.